UPDATE UPDATE

Hey everyone I ust wanted to let every know to update their blogs! This Blog is going away! We are now at


www.snhgeiger09.blogspot.com


so please update!!!!!

Life with Baby Ethan

How do I describe the complete joy that fills my heart everytime that he stares into my eyes gives me that gummy little smile. No matter how tired I am I love taking care of him. He is so amazing in everyway.

Ethan changes everyday, something new happens. He is gaining his own little personality, for example, he loves to lay on his belly on your chest, he only likes 2 of the binkis that we have in the house, he hates being in his car seat unless we are actually moving. He loves it when you help him strech his legs, after a bath he prefers to stay in a diaper and be wrapped up in his big blue camo blanket. It is so amazing!

Ethan has been having some fevers and has been really congested so on monday I called the doctor and talked to him about the babies fever and congestion and he told me to take him to the emergency room my first mistake was not going to childrens hospital, I went to Littleton Adventist which for adults and older children it is a great hospital but for little tiny babies I would not recommend it. Anyway first we sat in the waiting room for about 45 minutes, then we were taken into a trauma room (all the other rooms were full) where they took his vital signs, there biggest concern was the fact that his respirations were elevated he should have been about 30 and he was between 45 and 50, so they ordered a chest x-ray. Chest x-ray came bake just fine. The doc then ordered blood work, the nurse came in to take blood and start an IV and they could not find a vein strong enough in his little arms and hands, the crazy nurse said "lets try his head" I said Absouletly not! So they ended up just pricking his heel to get the blood which which was much less tramatic. The also tested for influenza (H1N1) and RSV which both came back negative, then the drama begain Doc comes in and says they dont know what is wrong (I am teling them it is a head cold) and they want to do a spinal tap. Are you freaking serious! so for about an hour I argued and cried about this, i was feeling like a horrible parent because I did not want the test done because of the pain involved, and also i felt it was very unneccessary, the doctor at the hospital made me feel so horrible about questioning them, well eventually I finally said fine do the stupid test! they came in and did the test and then I held him and he calmed down immediatley.. Guess what the test was NEGATIVE! At that point they wanted to admit him for observation and I refused I did not give in on that and I brought the baby home and besides being extremely congestion he is doing great. I was very tramatized and he was totally fine. If I have to take him to the ER again I will drive to childrens no matter what, he will not go to a regular hospital.

Well that is about all that has been going on besides the normal everyday stuff of living life, oh yeah we just moved but that is another post.

Just a couple of pictures

He is the greatest baby in the world, he is such a joy.

Another day in Paradise! ( I am being honest)

Ethan is 3 weeks ols today, I cannot believe how fast time is flying, I wish that he would just stay little forever but then I think that I would never get any sleep. He is doing very well, has a little cold but is getting over it very quickly. I am in awe of how much he has grown. I think about the fact that July 13 was his true due date and to to think that he could still be in my belly is just a little weird, I can not imagine being pregnant still. I am feeling much better from the c-section I still get pretty tired in the evenings and that is when I really start to hurt. I will survive.

Onto other things, I am flying to El Paso on the 20th just for the day, to go to my biological fathers memorial services at Fort Bliss, I will be flying 1400 miles in 12 hours. I have to leave my little guy at home with my mom I am not looking forward to having to leave him, but I will manage somehow. In some ways I wonder if I should go to the services, because of the relationship that he and I had, but then if I dont go I would regret it for the rest of my life. I also am having a hard time believing that he is really gone, I feel that he will just call me up here in about a year or so and everything will be okay again, but that will not happen. :(

Scott and I are moving at the end of July into yet another stupid apartment! I am devastated that we are going into another apartment, but I am greatful that it will save us a little money and get us just a little more room, ecspecailly for baby Ethan. Of coarse I have to sacrifice my washer and dryer, it almost brings me to tears thinking about it, I love being able to wash my clothes in the comfort of my own home. The new aprtment has the front loading high end washers and dryers so it will not be horrible just inconvient. We also lose out on a balcony and we are on the garden level so I am hoping that it will not be to depressing being that I wont be able to get much light, I feel bad for Fenix because he really loves to look outside, I will just have to make a point to get him to the park EVERYDAY! The winter will be rough because I will not want to drag baby out in the cold but I gotta do what I gotta do. The apartments are brand new-well they have been remodeled and I am talking down to the studs remolded, new kitchens, new bathroom new everything. So it will be okay I hope...

Well I guess that is all for now, I will post pictures of baby Ethan soon, I am trying to talk Scott into family pictures soon. Probably next week when we get to have Cole for a couple of days.

God Bless everyone

Rest in Peace

As of today 7/7/2009 I have offically lost my biological dad. He passed away this afternoon at 3:30. I truely believe that he was waiting to meet his Grandson Ethan, as he just saw a picture of him this morning, I sent it to him via e-mail and my step mom printed it and gave it to him and he held it in his hands and smiled at it through the day and did not let go of the picture until his muscles relaxed after he passed away... Please Please pray for our family...

Need Understanding

For those of you who know me, you know that I have always struggled with the relationship between my biological father and myself. He has not been there for me and I seriously have only seen him 3 times in over 20 years... My mom divorced him when I was 5. Well anyway, he is in Hospice care and will not live through the week... I do not understand why I am hurting over this but I am... Please pray for us...

Ethan is here

Well , I know I havent posted in a while but I wanted to let everyone know that Baby Ethan is here!!!! He was born by c-section on June 23, 2009. He spent 2 days in the NICU because of wet lungs but he is doing great now.

We have been having a great time getting to know our little bundle of joy. Thank you everyone who prayed for our little Miracle...