The Journey of a lifetime

UPDATE UPDATE

2009-08-13T08:48:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone I ust wanted to let every know to update their blogs! This Blog is going away! We are now at

www.snhgeiger09.blogspot.com

so please update!!!!!

Life with Baby Ethan

2009-08-13T07:31:00.000-07:00

How do I describe the complete joy that fills my heart everytime that he stares into my eyes gives me that gummy little smile. No matter how tired I am I love taking care of him. He is so amazing in everyway.

Ethan changes everyday, something new happens. He is gaining his own little personality, for example, he loves to lay on his belly on your chest, he only likes 2 of the binkis that we have in the house, he hates being in his car seat unless we are actually moving. He loves it when you help him strech his legs, after a bath he prefers to stay in a diaper and be wrapped up in his big blue camo blanket. It is so amazing!

Ethan has been having some fevers and has been really congested so on monday I called the doctor and talked to him about the babies fever and congestion and he told me to take him to the emergency room my first mistake was not going to childrens hospital, I went to Littleton Adventist which for adults and older children it is a great hospital but for little tiny babies I would not recommend it. Anyway first we sat in the waiting room for about 45 minutes, then we were taken into a trauma room (all the other rooms were full) where they took his vital signs, there biggest concern was the fact that his respirations were elevated he should have been about 30 and he was between 45 and 50, so they ordered a chest x-ray. Chest x-ray came bake just fine. The doc then ordered blood work, the nurse came in to take blood and start an IV and they could not find a vein strong enough in his little arms and hands, the crazy nurse said "lets try his head" I said Absouletly not! So they ended up just pricking his heel to get the blood which which was much less tramatic. The also tested for influenza (H1N1) and RSV which both came back negative, then the drama begain Doc comes in and says they dont know what is wrong (I am teling them it is a head cold) and they want to do a spinal tap. Are you freaking serious! so for about an hour I argued and cried about this, i was feeling like a horrible parent because I did not want the test done because of the pain involved, and also i felt it was very unneccessary, the doctor at the hospital made me feel so horrible about questioning them, well eventually I finally said fine do the stupid test! they came in and did the test and then I held him and he calmed down immediatley.. Guess what the test was NEGATIVE! At that point they wanted to admit him for observation and I refused I did not give in on that and I brought the baby home and besides being extremely congestion he is doing great. I was very tramatized and he was totally fine. If I have to take him to the ER again I will drive to childrens no matter what, he will not go to a regular hospital.

Well that is about all that has been going on besides the normal everyday stuff of living life, oh yeah we just moved but that is another post.

Just a couple of pictures

2009-07-19T07:43:00.001-07:00

He is the greatest baby in the world, he is such a joy.

Another day in Paradise! ( I am being honest)

2009-07-14T21:32:00.000-07:00

Ethan is 3 weeks ols today, I cannot believe how fast time is flying, I wish that he would just stay little forever but then I think that I would never get any sleep. He is doing very well, has a little cold but is getting over it very quickly. I am in awe of how much he has grown. I think about the fact that July 13 was his true due date and to to think that he could still be in my belly is just a little weird, I can not imagine being pregnant still. I am feeling much better from the c-section I still get pretty tired in the evenings and that is when I really start to hurt. I will survive.

Onto other things, I am flying to El Paso on the 20th just for the day, to go to my biological fathers memorial services at Fort Bliss, I will be flying 1400 miles in 12 hours. I have to leave my little guy at home with my mom I am not looking forward to having to leave him, but I will manage somehow. In some ways I wonder if I should go to the services, because of the relationship that he and I had, but then if I dont go I would regret it for the rest of my life. I also am having a hard time believing that he is really gone, I feel that he will just call me up here in about a year or so and everything will be okay again, but that will not happen. :(

Scott and I are moving at the end of July into yet another stupid apartment! I am devastated that we are going into another apartment, but I am greatful that it will save us a little money and get us just a little more room, ecspecailly for baby Ethan. Of coarse I have to sacrifice my washer and dryer, it almost brings me to tears thinking about it, I love being able to wash my clothes in the comfort of my own home. The new aprtment has the front loading high end washers and dryers so it will not be horrible just inconvient. We also lose out on a balcony and we are on the garden level so I am hoping that it will not be to depressing being that I wont be able to get much light, I feel bad for Fenix because he really loves to look outside, I will just have to make a point to get him to the park EVERYDAY! The winter will be rough because I will not want to drag baby out in the cold but I gotta do what I gotta do. The apartments are brand new-well they have been remodeled and I am talking down to the studs remolded, new kitchens, new bathroom new everything. So it will be okay I hope...

Well I guess that is all for now, I will post pictures of baby Ethan soon, I am trying to talk Scott into family pictures soon. Probably next week when we get to have Cole for a couple of days.

God Bless everyone

Rest in Peace

2009-07-07T16:11:00.000-07:00

As of today 7/7/2009 I have offically lost my biological dad. He passed away this afternoon at 3:30. I truely believe that he was waiting to meet his Grandson Ethan, as he just saw a picture of him this morning, I sent it to him via e-mail and my step mom printed it and gave it to him and he held it in his hands and smiled at it through the day and did not let go of the picture until his muscles relaxed after he passed away... Please Please pray for our family...

Need Understanding

2009-07-06T21:43:00.000-07:00

For those of you who know me, you know that I have always struggled with the relationship between my biological father and myself. He has not been there for me and I seriously have only seen him 3 times in over 20 years... My mom divorced him when I was 5. Well anyway, he is in Hospice care and will not live through the week... I do not understand why I am hurting over this but I am... Please pray for us...

Ethan is here

2009-07-06T21:39:00.002-07:00

Well , I know I havent posted in a while but I wanted to let everyone know that Baby Ethan is here!!!! He was born by c-section on June 23, 2009. He spent 2 days in the NICU because of wet lungs but he is doing great now.

We have been having a great time getting to know our little bundle of joy. Thank you everyone who prayed for our little Miracle...

TESTING

2009-07-06T21:39:00.001-07:00

TESTING TESTING

Please Pray

2009-06-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Dont worry the baby is fine, what is not fine is Scott and I. Please pray for us. i am not sure if we will get through this...

8 more days

2009-06-14T08:05:00.000-07:00

I am being in duced on the 22nd!! 8 days from today! OMG I am so excited! Oh yeah and nervous as hell. That means that in 8 days I will be going into labor and having a baby! Okay so I am pretty scared to be honest. I know that we are in good hands-even though i had to change doctors last week. Long story short, Dr. Watson's office, stopped taking my insurance as of June 1, 2009 well I had to find a new doctor which we did- Dr. Bury, he works out of swedish hospital so we will be going to a differnt hospital (that makes me scared) anyway Scott and I got a good feeling from the dr Bury so I am confident that he will bringbaby Ethan into the world just fine.
As far as everything else, i am starting to worry about bills and making ends meet, we were counting on me having at least one more paycheck before the baby, so I am not really sure how we will pay our bills (mainly rent) ecspecially because we are on such a tight budget.. I just dont see where the money will come from, Scott and I have been looking for anothe place to call home, someplace cheaper but all the places that we are finding do not have washer dryer hook-ups and I refuse to go to the laundry mat with a newborn, it would be so expensive because the baby will go through a lot of clothes and blankets and what not.. So we will see how this plays out.
As far as being ready for baby, I think that we have all the basic essentials for baby, crib, bassinet changing tables, swing, bouncy seat, bottles, diapers, wipes clothes, blankets, as well as a bunch of other stuff! Well I promise I will post pictures and updates as often as possible!

Reality is Hitting HARD

2009-05-30T22:24:00.000-07:00

Let me start by saying I am greatful that I am able to have this baby! Please dont think bad of me for saying that I wish I did not have to go through labor. I am TERRIFIED!

We had a trip to labor and delivery last night (as gross as it is) I lost my mucus plug last night and freaked out and ran to labor and delivery! How embarrassing, now Doc Watson just happen to be there, and orginally he wanted to keep me overnight but for some reason, I started to panic, now I am not talking just whinnning and complaining panic, i am talking full on hyper-venalating, heart rate raising extremely high panic! He ended up letting me go home because he did not want me to stress so much.
Well it didnt hit me until this afternoon, I will be staying in the hospital for a few days when the baby comes. I will be having an IV (i am terrified of needles), I might be getting an epidural, if that happens I will be having a catheter.. not to mention having to push out a baby from a small little opening between my legs.
I have not really figured out why i am so scared but i am very nervous. I just want things to go well. Please pray for us!

4:35 in the Morning!

2009-05-24T03:35:00.000-07:00

Well I have to say that this pregnancy, is causing me to have some major sleep problems! I cant sleep, and when I do sleep if I get woke up its all over and I am awake for the day, well until my body finally takes over and I fall back asleep! I hate the fact that I am not sleeping, it is completely wearing on my body. I find that I am grumpier then ever!

My baby shower is in a few hours and I am so excited! Actually it is today at 2 pm so I have a while but it is actually happening! I am so excited

I cant believe it

2009-05-03T09:15:00.000-07:00

WOW!!! I cannot believe that we are about 8 weeks from having our little man... I am 30 weeks preggers today! HOLY COW! That just seems crazy. I am so excited dont get me wrong, but I have to admit I am getting scared.

Well the Nursery is complete well minus a few big items, the changing table- Dad is repainting it white for me-the swing, and most important BABY. Unfortunetely we have decided that it will be better for us to stay in the one bedroom until Scott can get onto a police department (Hopefully Fort Lupton) with that being said we are a little crampped we have no dinnig room that area is now the nursery. The crib looks really cute where it is, and it will look better when we get the changing table and hopefully we will be able to survive. Until we get something bigger, we are hoping and praying that our next move we make will be into a house of our own or at least one step closer.

THE BIRTH PLAN
Well that is a big question what to do... Natural or drugs? What Would You Do, we are trying for a natural child birth, I say we but I mean me. I a not sure how supportive my family will be but I guess it is a mission that I may have to accomplish on my own.

Time for another Baby Update

2009-04-22T21:10:00.000-07:00

Monday e went for our 28 week ultrasound, Baby looked great! He weighs about 2.5 pounds and the doc said he is totally healthy! I am so happy and excited about that. As for me well I failed the 1 hour gluclose test and have to take the 3 hour test tomorrow, lets hope and pray that I will pass that. I cannot even imagine having to take insulin shots and lovenox shots everyday... Well anyway everything is going great baby shower is in 6 weeks and baby will be here in 9 weeks!!!

26 weeks

2009-04-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

I cant believe that I have made it this far! I am 26 weeks with a healthy baby! I am so stinkin excited. So is Scott... I have to say that I am getting more and more tired everyday, but in a strange way I am okay with it. I welcome any movement of the baby, even though at times he feels like a kick boxer on steriods... I love the reassurance that he is ok... I am going to be preparing to send out my Baby Shower Invites here pretty soon, even though my mom spelled my name wrong on them I am excited that they will be going out soon. Scott and I are pretty lucky that my mom and sis are throwing us a shower, I know that we will recieve items that we would not be able to buy because of this crappy economy...
I am registering at Babies R Us and at Target just so that people have choices... All though i am sure most everyone will be going to Target... Well anyway onto other news

We had Cole over his spring break and we had a blast! We did not do to much because it was snowing but hey we still hung out with the little man... I just realized that I cant really call him that anymore because he is almost as tall as me, and he wont be the "little" one for much longer..

Well because I really have nothing else to say I shall sign off for now.

Update on Premie Baby

2009-03-22T14:25:00.000-07:00

Just so everyone know the baby that I told you all about has been taken off of his breathing machine and is breathing on his OWN! He is eating about 2 cc every 6 hours and seems to be fighting this hard fight very well. Keep praying!!!!!

PRAYERS NEEDED ASAP

2009-03-18T09:00:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Everything with me and Ethan are great, but I have a friend who had her baby this morning she was only 24 weeks preg.... The doctors are giving the little guy a 70 % chance everyday his odds will go up! Pray for her she had a tough pregnancy!

Mothers name is Christina
Baby name Christian

Father,
Please please watch over Christian and give him the strength he needs to fight for his little precious life. give his parents the faith that they will need to get through this extemely hard time! You are the almighty God and we lift this precious family to you! In your name we pray AMEN

Time for a real update

2009-03-17T17:24:00.001-07:00

Well it has been a while since I have actually posted something worth reading on here... Not that much of what I say means anything to anyone but hey good reading sometimes I guess...

Sunday night I was in the ER I could have swore the baby was comming but nope just passing a kidney stone! Which SUCKED it was so painful. All is well now and I am recovering.

Tomorrow is my 23 week Ultra sound which is awesome because I get to see the little guy! I am sure he is geting so big now. My parents will be with us at our 27 week Ultra sound I am excited aout that dad has never seen a real ultra sound (even though he delivered 11 babies as a firefighter emt.) The baby has been moving quiet a bit I feel him alot which is awesome for me because it reassures me that everything is ok.

Thursday I start my new job at Portrait Innovations, I had to go pants and shrt shopping and I feel like a beached whale but I guess that is how I am supposed to feel at this point in my pregnancy. I am very very excited to be starting work, it has been a love hate relationship of staying home all the time! I love the fact I can sleep in, but I hate not having anything productive to do. So I am very happy to be going back to work and I am very happy that it is doing things that I love photography! I will be updating my website soon be sure to check it out. All right well I suppose i will sign off now hope you all are doing well.

The Nursery is complete

2009-03-15T14:44:00.001-07:00

Well we finally got our crib! So we set everything up just to see what it would look like and I LOVE IT! I hate that I have to take it all down and put everything in storage still being in a one bedroom sucks but hopefully we will be able to get in a 2 bedroom soon. Anyway thats it for now. Here are some pictures... (the bear is posing as Baby Ethan HEHE)

2009-03-08T20:30:00.001-07:00

i have not been on here in a while, sometimes I just dont know what to write. I figured I should at least update everyone on the baby, He is doing great and I am now able to feel him move it is an amazing feeling to know that he is moving around in there... Anyway I have started buying some baby stiff, mainly clothes as we dont really have the money to buy the big stuff. I am not really sure how we will get the big stuff that we need, ecspecially with me being laid off again. :( Really we only need a crib we will be able to get everything else, but the crib I just dont know... We will figure it out eventually.
Anyway, everything else is good we are happy and healthy and just livin the best life we can...

I am so excited

2009-02-21T08:17:00.000-08:00

My mom is the best in the world! She just bought us the babies crib bedding set! I am so excited mom i love you so much! I should have it in the next week! OMG this is really happening he is really comming this time!

20 weeks ultrasound pictures!

2009-02-20T11:28:00.002-08:00

Okay well we had the Big Ultrasound and it was AWESOME. Little Ethan was moving and kicking like crazy! He has gotten SO bog. I cannot believe that I am half way done being preg.

Birthdays and Such

2009-02-15T17:04:00.000-08:00

Cole is officially a TWEEN a preteen boy! It is crazy, I cannot believe that I first meet that little boy when he was 5 years old! My how he has changed. He has changed so much since this picture that was taken Aug. 08.

Scott and I took friday off work and were able to spend the day with Cole, We went to Ocean journey in Down Town Denver, We had a blast we were actually able to feed stingrays! It was an amazing experience.

Why oh Why

2009-02-07T20:38:00.000-08:00

Why oh Why must I be this stinkin tired! I have had a really busy week and the last few days I have been battling a severe kidney infection, which hurts beyond belief! I am tired and cranky and can't sleep at night. Baby likes to sit really deep in my uterus so my back is constantly hurting. Although I guess I am just happy that I am happy that I have all of the pain and being uncomfortable. It makes me know that Ethan is ok.
Onto other things-
Cleaning and organizing, it is crazy how fanatic I am being about getting this house clean, it seems like it is never ending. i seem to clean one day and the next day and it is dirty again. Laundry that is my worst enemy I HATE laundry, I really dont mind doing the laundry it is the tideous folding and putting away. I would rather just leave it in the hamper, but I cant do that I have to fold it and put it away. UGH
Although this week I was able to get a new shelve for y laundry room and now i can actually use the laundry room for more then just a laundry, I can store my vaccuum (which by the way makes me really happy) For the last 2 years that we have lived here I have not had a place for the dirty ol vaccuum, until tonight when I reorganized by laundry room. YEAH! I also got an over the toliet shelve thingy that I will put together tomarrow it is pretty cool, I will have a little bit more storage in that tiny bathroom. OH and I got a Scrubbing Bbbles Automatic Shower Cleaner that thing is cool! So anyway that is that.

I have to say that I am very very happy that our friends Will and Jess are finally home-Will was deployed to Afghanastan, while he was gone Jess lived with her parents in Nebraska. Anyway they are home and live less then 5 minutes from us, I am so happy they are here, they are by far our best friends, they are such amazing people, would be willing to give the shirts off their backs. We have asked Will and Jess to be Ethans God Parnets and they said that they would be honored. They are pretty excited for the little guy to get here. They will be a big part of the little mans life. In fact they may go to Iowa with us when we take Ethan to meet his grandpa for the first time! I would love it if they could go with us we will see.

Just more pictures

2009-01-30T16:17:00.000-08:00

So we had our 16 week ultra sound and baby looks great see for yourself

Worries

2009-01-26T06:25:00.000-08:00

Its official I am 16 weeks and 1 day, my baby boy is growing and amazingly active from what I can tell. Pregnancy for me has never been this great, I have in the past miscarried by this point or found out that something was terriably wrong. I am so scared, that what if I get to full term and something happens to my wonderful son, I cant seem to understand what happens when babies die for no reason. I find myself withdrawing from the baby at times, not wanting to think that it is real. It is just so hard to have faith that he will be okay after everything that we have been through. I know that by now if somethings was going to be wrong with him we would have seen it ( I hope) we have done all the testing and everything looks great, why am I feeling this way... I just feel like no one can understand where I am comming from, what my fears and doubts are... I just feel so lost.

Latest U/S Picture

2009-01-23T13:27:00.001-08:00

Okay so here is the latest U/S picture it is 2d but we get our 3d session next week. :)

My Story (long)

2009-01-23T10:37:00.000-08:00

Okay so it has been requested that I tell my story, a story that has been going on for the last 6 years, and is still going on....

Okay here is a little background, I am 25 years old and I have been married for 6 years. I spent 7 years in the military thats where the story begins.

When I joined the military I met the man that I married, Scott, we have had a pretty good marriage but we have also had our problems. Scott and I decided pretty early in our marriage that we wanted to have children, so we just firgured that we would not protect againist preganancy but not actual try... Well guess what it worked in April of 2006 I got preg. but due to an upcomming military deployment, I had been vaccinated for everything under the sun, Anthrax, Small Pox, Rabies,mmr, and a whole bunch of other stuff. We had no idea that there was a baby trying to develop inside me. 1 week before our deployment test I had a positive preg test! Well needless to say, I was taken off the deployment roster but Scott he still had to go... He deployed on May 15, I miscarried on May 17th, (somewhat expected because of the vaccinations) Okay so Scott was deployed until Aug 28th of 03 he got to come home early because his mom was so terribibly sick, and we were not sure she would survive, so the Army allowed him to come home! THANK GOD!!!! Okay well Scott and I went on BC for a little while because of the vaccinations. We went off bc in April of 2004 low and behold we got preg pretty quick. I had a positive pregnancy test in August of 2004, after my first OB appointment we discovered that we were being blessed with twins, We were so HAPPY Twins OMG! Everything was progressing pretty well we found out we were having a girl and a boy, Madyson LaBelle and Wyatt Kingsley, we started planning and preparing and telling our family! We were so excited, one day Scott and I were in Iowa fishing on Lake Odessa when I felt like something was wrong really really wrong, well that was October 15, 2004 I went to the er to find that there were no heartbeats the babies had passed away. We were devestated! Scott and I figured that having children was not in cards for us. We moved back to Colorado in January of 2005, we had another positive test in 2005 but miscarried again with a couple of days of the positive test.

We had some "pregnancy scares" through out the next couple of years but nothing great nothing to write home about... Until August of 2007 I got pregneant and everything was going amazingly, we had great u/s sounds. During my 12 week u/s the doctor started thinking that something was wrong with the babies heart, after some more extensive testing we discovered that our little daughter would have a severe heart defect, she would most likely need open heart surgery a few days after she was born, if the problem didnt correct it self in the womb. We were upset but grateful that we would have this little darling that choice us as her parents and family. On November 22nd, our precious little girl passed away while still in my womb, she was delivered but I never got to see her... Scott was not able to be with me either... It was by far the worst day of my life. The doctors have always said that the miscarriages were most likely due to the vaccinations that I received while in the army.

Scott and I again decided that we were done trying to have children and that we were going to be happy with the way things were, just the 2 of us.

Scott and I had been trying not to get preg. when sure enough I got preg! I found out I was preg the first part of November, Although I was hesitant to tell anyone I kept the secret between Scott and I well for a few days, I went to the Doctor, and had an ultrasound done at 5 weeks 3 days, a little black circle was all we saw. Well we decided that we would need the support of our family, so we told the family that week. I went in for weekly ultrasounds, and sure enough a couple weeks later we saw a super strong heartbeat! 113 beats a minute, then the next ultra sound jumped to 176 heart beats a minute!
Oksy, so I have finally found a doctor that knows what he is doing, he tested me for everything under the son, during the 1st trimester it was discovered that I had a low progestrone level, I got put on Prometruim once a day, the pills from hell! They made me so terribly sick! I would not have changed it for anything! Okay so when I was 12 weeks I was able to come off of the Prometruim, the doctor then decided that it would be good to test me for any blood clotting disorders, well guess what sure enough I have MTHFR -Homogenous- which means that I have not one but two mutated genes that cause my blood to clot unnessasarily. I am now taking 30 ml of Lovenox once a day, This is an injection in the stomach. I take extra folic acid and baby asprin everyday to help my blood from clotting. We also discovered that I am Rh Negative- i have recieved 1 Rhogham shot thus far. I am now 15 weeks 5 days! We are having a boy!

I guess one of the reasons, that Tersea wanted me to share my story, is because I have been where some of you are.... I may not have had to go through fertility treatments, but I have had the heartbreak and devesation that comes with trying to have a family. There were days that I would get AF and I would cry my eyes out because the chance of having a baby were gone for that month. It seemed like people around me were having babies, I was angry and didnt understand why someone like me, someone who has devoted herself to the country and to God, could get preg. only to be devestated when our babies were taken from us! I began to doubt god and question why, there are still days that go by I wonder why. I am sure of one thing, without my family I would not have gotten through any of this. Everyday I say a little prayer for my little baby growing inside me, I say a prayer for all of the couples out there trying to concieve, I pray that you will all have the strength to get through the rollar coaster and know that when you finally get to hold your little baby in your arms it will be priceless....

I hope that in some ways my story can give you hope, and the will to keep going, if I can ever help just let me know and I will be there.....

The best part of everything

2009-01-20T06:58:00.000-08:00

This will be really quick and easy post but I have to tell you all!!!

During our Ultra sound monday afternoon, (they wanted to check everything cause of the accident) The u/s tech and I were talking and I made the comment we will know in a few weeks what we are having and she said " Well I already know" Then she made us wait 5 min before she would tell us what it was....

ITS A BOY!!!!!!!!!

Our little boy is super healthy and looks just perfect!

Weekend from H.E. double Hockey Stick (HELL)

2009-01-20T06:23:00.000-08:00

okay so the weekend started out really well, I mean considering the fact that my wonderful dad has retired after 45 years with the Fort Lupton Fire Department, The Fire Department had a retirement party for him friday afternoon. It was amazing to see how many people loved him enough to take time out of there schedules to come to his retirement party that was in the middle of the day. The fire Department has been such a big part of his life for the last 45 years that it was pretty emotional, I know that I cried when dad was talking about the department.

Okay so that was Friday,

Saturday, I wake up just a normal day, wrong---- No not really, a little back information, seems that dad has retired, they need a second vehicle so over the last couple of weeks I have been researching dealeships and vehicles that may work for dad, so Saturday mom and dad decide to come down to littleton and get a new-used car so first off the line Burt Chevy, the sales man Chris, he was pretty good, but he was pretty pushy at times ecspecially on this 1994 Mercedes OMG let me tell you that car was gorgeous!!! It was in mint condition to bad it had 93k miles on it! Okay so next dad started looking at a 2005 Kia Rio

Dad liked it and it only had 42K. Sticker price 8562.00 Okay so they were hoping to get something under 7K, So we went on a test drive, All of us piled in the little 4 cyl car and off we went... So car rode pretty nice everything worked it did okay on the highway. So we get back to the dealership, and my parents offer the dealership 6500 cash out the door. Well the dealership counter offered with 9688 a thousand over sticker price, at that point we decided to leave... it was now 4 in the afternoon.. SO we trek across the street to Enter-Prise Car Sales, so I had called enterprise saturday morning and talked to Eric who specifically went and got this car for my parents to look at... A 2007 Ford Taurus- well needless to say buy 5:30 we were on our way home and mom and dad had a new car!

Okay so Sunday this is where things get Stupid!!!

Went to work had a pretty good day, When I got off work I decided I needed to go and get some cat and dog food from petco. So I drive and drive and I get there and I am turning into the parking lot and some teenager on his cell phone smacks into me and then I hit a pole REALLY HARD!!! I smacked my face on the steering wheel and I had my seatbelt on and of coarse it tighted up on me and I have some wonderful bruises from that. In the first couple seconds I didnt panic but after the initial shock wore off I burst into hysterics while talking to the police dispatcher- Oh yeah forgot to mention that the teenager backed up and ran away like a little coward! Anyway I call mom and dad and dad heads towards littleton to help me, meanwhile police, paramedics and fire rescue get there and rush me to the hospital.. dont worry beside some bruising baby is safe and sound! The truck on the other hand not so great! Anyway it was a horrible day and my truck is still broken and we dont have the money to get it fixed and well insurance wont cover it! Anyway that was the weekend, good thing I got to have an ultra sound and I saw my little beand moving around...

okay here it is BABY NAME POLL

2009-01-13T18:13:00.000-08:00

PLEASE LET US KNOW WHAT YOU ALL THINK

BOY- Ethan Garrett
Bryson Scott
Warren Kingsley

GIRL- Hannah Grace
AnnaBelle Faith
BellaJean

Depressed

2009-01-12T17:10:00.000-08:00

Well, on the positive side everything is great with the baby! Everything else just seemed screwed up. What really sucks is I cant talk to Scottie about it because he will just think that I am not being considerate of his feelings, which isnt the case at all. Its just that I have concerns and problems just as much as he does. I know that he is a little bit more stressed yes, but it makes me feel horrible when he complains about having to work extra, and he gets mad at me for being on bedrest. I am now back to work, and he says to me today " I have a gut feeling that something is not right" not right about what? He cant tell me.. So I dont even know what to do to fix it. He is so depressed and there is nothing I can do to fix it.. Needless to say I am extremely depressed and to tell you guys the honest truth I am not even that excited for baby right now... :( I know that will change, but right now it just seems hopeless....

Reason behind the name

2009-01-07T18:23:00.000-08:00

So alot of people have been asking me about my name HeatnTequilla, there is a story behind this and I will explain.

Being that my first name is Heather thats where the Heat partially comes from. Over the summer I worked as a wrangler for a Dude Ranch here in Colorado, I trainied the horses and I took guests out on trail rides. Okay so this pictures is of a Horse named Hollywood, He is huge, well during a trail ride we had but a young lady who was about 10 yrs old on him for the ride. Well about a quarter through the ride he started getting really antsy, so I decided that I would ride him. Well I got the little girl on my horse and I was getting on Hollywood and he started bucking and crow hopping and then he bolted! I totally fell off! When I got on the radio to tell the trail boss all I could manage to say was HEAT DOWN WRANGLER HEAT DOWN!!!

Anyway that became my nickname HEAT

Well Tequilla was my wrangler horse's name she was the best horse in the world outside of my little spansh mustang Sundance!

Tequilla

Okay so I think that this is the best picture ever!!! She was such an amazing horse and she loved me that was the great thing I get a little choked up thinking about her!

Here are a couple other pictures as well-PROMISE YOU WONT LAUGH i look like a goof ball

So hence the name Heat n Tequilla.

Good Night Y'ALL :)

Seriously What next

2008-12-31T08:00:00.001-08:00

Okay so for those of you who dont know, my doctors appointment yesterday wasnt that great! I have MTHFR which is a blod clotting disorder. I have to take daily injections of blood thinners to help keep my pregnancy going... I am just really nervous and scared. Keep us in your prayers!

2nd Trimester!!!!

2008-12-29T07:40:00.000-08:00

So it is official I am in my second trimester! I am so excited that I have finally made it this far. I think that this one will actually stick. I have a doctors appointment this afternoon and we will get to hear babies heartbeat and hopefully all will be good. :) It is amazing that after all Scott and I have been through he picks now to bless us with an amazing child! We have so much love to give this little baby!!!

So Frusterated

2008-12-22T09:17:00.000-08:00

I am so frusterated!! I am so done trying to be a working pregneant women, the pet store I work for has no idea how hard it is to stand on your feet all day 8 hours, Oh and then yeah in order to move up in the company I have to be willing to work 6 days a week from 9:15 am to 8:00 to 8:30 Pm every day, OH and it is a salaried so I will get NO overtime. How silly is that. Well anyway... thats all for now I am so frusterated I cant even think straight!!!

OMG 3D Ultrasound!!!!!!

2008-12-19T17:14:00.000-08:00

So I went to the doctors today to get some blood drawn and my doctor was training a new sonographer and they used me as a "test Dummy" This is what we saw!!!!

UGH

2008-12-19T07:24:00.000-08:00

okay, so I have decided that I am totally stressed out and terrified that something will go wrong with the baby. I cant concentrate on anything! I am terrified to do anything except sit on the couch and veg... I am terrified that we will lose the baby and then it will be a lost cause to ever try and have a baby, because what the point.. everyone says everything will be ok. I feel like everything is fine but I am still completely scared. July is so far away, and it just seems lik each day just goes by so slow. Well I guess i should stop complaining...

Doctors Appointment

2008-12-17T07:25:00.001-08:00

Well Scott and I had our doctor appointment on Monday everything went really well, the doctor did an u/s just to ease my fears, because some of my "symptoms" have been going away. He found the baby right away and the baby was moving around a lot! Strong heartbeat and everything, all though we couldnt hear the heartbeat on the "doppler" we saw it on the u/s. I go back in 2 weeks for another check-up and that will put me into my 2nd trimester! I am so very excited.

Other news my big sister Char is getting married again! Even though this is her 3rd wedding she is having a big well semi big wedding about 250 people will be there, including the baby she is getting married at the end of August first part of september. which is really exciting. I really want to be her mad of honor because even though i am having a baby I love my sister and would be hurt if she didnt choose me, I would love to throw her a bridial shower and bachlorette party, I wanna go dress shopping with her and see how gorgeous she will be.. it is up to her who she chooses but I would like to be the one.

Right now we are trying to figure out what we should do about the cat, Nitters, we love him to death and I have always said that I would not give up one of my animals to a shleter, but I can't find him a home and I can't keep him. I am trying to get him into the maxfund because I know that it is a NO KILL shelter, but they are limited on space. I am so lost and confused on what to do, but he poops out of the litter box everyday! I think now he just does it to do it, but being preg, that is not healthy for me or the baby, my parents cant take him, neither can my sister. I just dont know I just dont know.

Cole is doing really well according to Robin, his bio mom, he is really excited about being a big brother. Scott and I are trying to find ways to keep him included so after eery doctors appointment we call him and tell him how things went and reasure him that every is ok. He will be such a great big brother. I was talking to Robin, and she actually offered to bring Cole to the hospital after the baby is born so that he could see the baby, I was so surprised i did not know what to say.

Okay so here is my bitch session, Myspace is a place for people to keep incontact with friends right? Why is it that I will leave comment and messages for all my friends and no one ever responds back!!!! I write blog after blog and no one really cares about me, maybe I am overly emotional but I am sorry thats how I feel. I feel like I have no real friends besides the ones that Scott has, Pete-who is a cop in New Caste and his Girlfriend Yati. Will and Jess who I love dearly but they have been trying to move back to Colorado since Sept and I am not sure that will ever happen. Aaron, he doesnt come around anymore, and hi ignores ALL of mine and Scotts calls, he is only around when it suits him. So whats the point... I dont know i guess that it just drives me crazy. Well enough is enough. I will try and write again soon.

:)

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2008-12-10T08:00:00.001-08:00

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A little Bit of time

2008-12-10T06:59:00.000-08:00

It is so hard to find the time to write during the week when I am at work, so I try to catch up on my days off. That would be today and tomorrow. Although I am looking for a new job because i can not stand the small business politics and demands. What really stinks is that I have no where I can advance to.. I will never be a manager, I will never be more then a front desk/bather! For me it is stupid to stay there. But I will for now untill the perfect job comes along. Anyway onto other things,

Baby update: Nothing new to report everything seems to be going well, I have been overaly emotional the last few days that is a good sign, or so I hear. I have been trying to think about just getting through each day instead of looking forward so much. July seems so far away, i think it will never get here. Even then I realize that we are almost through December and the January will be here. maybe then it wont seem so far away. So I have planned something for every month until the baby comes so that I can have something to look forward to each month! So in January we will plan a little Birthday Party for my mom, Feb is a super busy month, Cole will be having his 11th Birthday, Dad will be having a birthday we have our 3D Ultrasound we will find out if it is a boy or girl! In March Scott will be going to Honduras for 3-4 weeks for an executive protection job that will pay really well. April is My Sisters birthday, May we will be shopping for baby and BABY SHOWER TIME! June we will be moving either to a 2 bedroom apartment where we are or to another town depending on where Scott is in the process of getting his POST cert renewed. July baby will be here! So hopefully we will be able to get everything set up and have a great time until July! Well thats the plan anyway!
Well I guess thats it for now. I hope everything is going well with everyone and I have everyone in my prayers!

WHY OH WHY

2008-12-04T13:40:00.000-08:00

So here is what I dont understand about God! He lets crack whores and teen girls who are babies themselves they all have perfectly healthy happy pregencies just to leave their babies in truck stop bathrooms or dumpsters in the freezing cold! When perfectly healthy women, who are married and want children yeah they can't have them WHAT THE @$#&! It makes no sense. I dont understand. I know that so far my little bean is growing and healthy! I am complaining and expressing my feelings for the ones that struggle, the ones that look at me and hate me for that small minute because I am pregneant. I wish that I could make it so that they could get pregeant I have called in favors from above for those I know who want a baby and cant have one. Ok well enough complaining I just had to tell you all that I totally understand, i have felt the each side of the fertility world....

So onto other things Shyann my 11 year neice is trying to become a model that is her goal in life right now! Looking at the pictures I have posted she could surely do it! I just wish that we could find a way to build her confidence in a way that she could be more then just a gorgeous girl! She has all she needs in the looks part but the inside needs a little work. i just havent figured out how to make that happen.

My emotions have been running totally wild!! It seems that everyday things make me cry and then 2 sec later I am laughing! I guess this is all part of it. Oh well.....

As the world Turns.

2008-11-30T07:18:00.000-08:00

The world turns without us even knowing that it is really spinning. Have you ever felt like your life is traveling at such a high speed that you just want to say STOP! Let me catch my breath. Well yesterday I was able to say stop and I was able to catch my breath and I am greatful for the day that i was able to spend with my husband ceebrating our anniversary. We spent the morning eating breakfest together and then we went shopping for jeans for me! I bought 2 pairs and hopefully they will last me a little while. We came home I took a nap and went and got my hair done and we went to dinner came home and watched a movie together wrapped in a blanket on the couch! It was amazing. Well anyway thats what I have for now.

Happy Anniversary to Us

2008-11-29T08:40:00.000-08:00

Well we have finally made it to 6 years of marriage!. I know that the last year was really hard on us but we have pulled through and made it. One of the things that has gotten me through is a verse in the bible that says that Love never fails. I have learned that the love that Scott has for me is eternal and that even though we may argue on occasion and have our disagreements he loves me for who I am and all the mistakes that I have made. If he can stick with me through all that then he deserves my unconditional love. I want him to know that I will always love him and cherish him. He is an amazing husband! Scottie I love you so much! I know that I may not have shown it the right ways but i do love you unconditionally. You are the light that guides me home, you are the air that I breath!

Happy Thanksgiving

2008-11-27T17:35:00.000-08:00

I am stuffed to the gills it is so AWESOME! I love the holidays it is amazing to see and spend time with family. I am very happy that I have such an amazing family. I know that I bitch and moan alot about my family but yo know i love them for who they are and what they are. SO it was amazing Scott and I were so nervous to tell Cole about the upcomming baby, but last night we had stopped for dinner and decided that it would be best if he heard it from us. So we took out the ultrasound picture that I keep with me and showed him. We asked him if he knew what it was he said " a baby?" He was so EXCITED he didnt ask to many questions or say too much last night. This morning him and I were sitting on the couch just chatting and he asked if he could help name the baby, I asked him what he was thinking about and he came up with the prettiest little girl name... Ashley Jolene "AJ" for short We told Scott and Scott suggested to change the Jolene to Jean and we would mark it in our list. It was really a special moment for Cole and I because we are not really that close. it really made my heart feel very warm and loved! He is such a good boy! I cant believe that he will be 11 in Febuary. He is both book amart and common sense smart! He will be a heartbreaker thats for sure. All though he takes after his dad in the gross department.. they think that it is funny to burp and fart in public drives me insane! I love them both the same even with that one little flaw!
Dinner at Mom and Dads went really well for the most part, Cavin was an absoulute Crank Ass! He was in a horrible mood and really all he needed was a bear bottom ass whoppin and he would have straighten up guarnteed! He laughs at any attempts of discipline my sister puts on him she told him he was going to be grounded and he said "thats fine I want to be grounded hehehehe" Little brat! He is cute but a brat, mom says that I am very strict but she doesnt think that I will be that strict with my baby, I tell her that I will because I believe that children should have guidelines and boundries and they need to have respect. I am not saying by any means that I am going to run my household like a military base but I will not have my child acting up and being totally out of control. Anyway the turkey was AWESOME it was so stickin yummy, sweet potatoes and all the trimmings.
It is funny Dad and I were talking about old times and we were remembering a thanksgiving many many years ago at Connie and "J's" house on South Fulton, Where Tersea, Kyrie, Chelsea and myself practiced a silly thanksgiving cheer that we "performed" after we said grace, I barely remember that but dad said that it was really cute. Its memories like that, which make me want our familes to be close. I am not really sure why we are not closer with dads side of the family, we want to be, I know that dad wants it, dad is tough on the outside but a teddy bear on the inside and I know that he misses spending time with his side of the family. I am not sure what really happened but I hope that someday we will be close. Well anyway I am going to sign off and lay down I am not feeling real well tonight. Love you all and remeber the true meaning of the holidays its not what your getting its what your giving!

Morning Sickness (should be called ALL DAMN DAY Sickness)

2008-11-24T16:05:00.000-08:00

Okay well I am officially tired of being sick! I know I know that I should be rejoicing about the fact I am having a baby and it is all part of it but I dont like being sick! It efffects me at work and I cant have that, I have to be on my toes ecspecially now because we are comming into the holiday season! We have been so busy at work that I havent had time to think but today was just horrible I couldnt even think straight. Well I guess I should be greatful that I am sick...

They drew blood again today and everything looked great. They did an ultrasound and baby looks great and the heart rate is up to 136. Which is perfect! I have a feeling in the pit of my heart that everything is going to be ok this time. I realized that this is the first time that Scott was actually ready to have a baby all the other times he just went with it because he had to. This time he is really excited, nervous but excited. Anyway onto other things: Scott and I have been talking about names and we want your opinion There are 2 choices for each boy and girl let us know what you think for wach one... Boy- Warren Kingsley or Ethan Colin Girl- BellaJean or Hannah Grace. I will let you know what we decided as soon as we decide!

Well I guess that is all i have to say for today I am super tired and trying to cook dinner so that I can get some rest!

Today is just Today

2008-11-20T10:58:00.000-08:00

Well it is just another day in paradise.. not really. I am so tired but have so much to do. I have laundry pilled high and dishes and I havent vacummed in a few days (YUCK) I have been so over whelmed with exhaustion! Oh well I will get to it after I am done typing. I am still trying to figure out the entire blogging site. I will figure it as I go.

Scott and I celebrate our anniversary on the 29th I am so excited I doubt that we will be able to do anything real fun but as long as we can go to dinner and send the day and evening together I will be fine. Scott and I are excited to just celebrate the day together.

So lets talk about drama I hate Drama! Everything in life right now is full of drama. Scott's best friend Aaron (maybe he is not a bf anymore) anyway, he has just kinda disappeared in our lives. We have done so much for that guy and he just stops calling and just disappears! It makes no sense to me, we would let him come over and eat all of our food we even at times gave him our last dollar and for what nothing! I guess I am just venting because Scott does not have all that many friends so when one goes away I worry. Aaron and I have had a differnces but I still want him around for Scott they had been through so much! Hopefully he will come around for Scott's sake.

Onto the next subjuect on our lives Peace Officers Standards and Training aka POST Scott is going to be preparing to renew his colorado POST which for him I think is a really good thing but I still worry about him being a cop again although he is smart and his heart is a cops heart. I know that I will have many worried night but as long as he is happy I will be happy too. He found out that it is 125.00 per unit that he has to retest in there are4 or 5 units so it will be expensive but he is going to find out if the department that he wants to work for will help him pay it. I will pray that they will. Scott has such heart when he puts his mind to it!

Well I guess that is it for today, I will try and post again tomorrow although by the time I get home I am usually exhausted! I am so tired now but have a little more cleaning to do. I will take a nap then finish cleaning( sounds like a plan) Well I will try and post ultrasound pictures later
:)

A Little Beating Heart

2008-11-19T15:36:00.000-08:00

Well Scott and I went to the doctor today and we saw the little tiny beating of a heart. The emotion that you feel when you see that is totally amazing. I only hope that Scott felt the same thing! I love that man so much! He is a great man and he doesnt believe it.

I think that this little one is going to stick I hope!

So onto other things, Scott has decided that he wants to persue his law enforcement certification. There is a police department in New Castle Colorado that he is trying to get on as officer there. I think that in general he will be happy!

Ultra Sound Tomorrow!

2008-11-18T18:52:00.000-08:00

So tomorrow is the day that I have been waiting for Scott and I will be able to see the heart beat of our little miracle baby! I am so excited about this baby! All though I still keep second guessing everything that my body does! Well hopefully the baby will have a really strong heart beat and all will be good. According to the Chinese Gender Chart it says we will be having a Girl! We will see how accurate that is. We will take what God gives us. We are so HAPPY!!!! Well i am going to head to bed talk to you all later

2 Little Pink Lines

2008-11-11T03:35:00.001-08:00

Well for everyone who will be following this blog i am proud to announce the comming of a BABY! Over the last week I have been a little sick to my stomach and just a little unsure, now I am sure. Last night I took a pregnancy test and we saw a 2 little pink lines although one was extremly light! So this morning at 4:18 am I took another test while Scottie slept peacefully. Again there was 2 little pink lines only this time it was much darker! What does all this mean seriously I mean with our history and everything I am terrified! Will the baby be okay, will we be okay. All I know is that GOD has answered our prayers and we will surely be blessed by him. If we continue to follow in his steps. Everything he does is for a reason. I am so excited. I am not sure how Scottie feels but I am sure that once we find out that the baby is ok then he will feel better and start getting excited. One day at a time. I figure that i am about 5-6 weeks so we still have a long while to wait before we will know anything for certain. So everyone say a little prayer for us. :)

TLC

2008-11-09T19:42:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I love the TV channel TLC I watch it pretty much all the time. As I am typing this blog I am watching a show called "Shrinking the worlds largest man" It is amazing to me how some one can let there weight get so out of control. This guy weighs over 800 lbs! I cant even explain, I cant imagine. It makes me want to get in the gym and work out like a mad women. I wish that I was skinny and pretty like I used to be, maybe someday.

In General

2008-11-09T19:14:00.000-08:00

Okay well I am not real good at the "bloggin" thing but I will try it and see how it goes. As you know the last few years have been trying on Scott and I and we are doing are very best to make life work. It has been a trying few days ecspecially since I have not been feeling well, I have had random stomach aches (which suck by the way) It seems like my work week is so long, but I dont work nearly as hard as my wonderful husband does. He has been putting in some long hard hours. I dont think he realizes how much I appreciate his hard work. He gets so angry at me because I dont show my stress to him, but I know that if I start stressing things will just go down hill. I wish i could give him a little bit of hope, sometimes that is all you have left and you have to count on an ounce of hope to get you through the worst times.

Scott and I will be celebrating our 6th year anniversary this year! in about 20 days I cant believe that it has been 6 years. WOW! Even though this summer was really hard on us I hope that he and I will be able to keep moving forward and just be happy and in love. It is the times that we spend alone that make me feel like he really loves me. I know that at times he doesnt think that I respect his feeling but I do, I guess I just havent learned how to show him that. I have really been trying to concentrate on SHUTING UP when he is expressing his feelings. Sometimes just listening will help. I think that for christmas I will buy him something that will mean something not an everyday gift. :) well I guess I have babbled enough about that..

I ahev to tell you that I am so glad the the election is OVER! I knew that this election was going to be historic I am glad the things happened the way they did. I feel that our country is in good hands. Ya know I never thought about politics in while I was in school but what shows me how times have changed is my wonderful step son Cole, one day Scott and I had taken Cole to lunch and we were talking about a joke I had heard about Hilary Clinton and Cole who is 10 said I hope that Obama wins, if I could vote I would vote for him because he will change america! The rest of lunch was full of a political conversation with a 10 year old! It was really neat to hear how he feels about things that most adults dont even understand. Cole is by far one of the smartest kids I know.